My first kiss went a little like this….

So recently, I had my first kiss. To say I was nervous; is an understatement. My legs were shaking.

Last weekend, I went on a tinder date with a fellow Jew (for those that don’t know, I’m Jewish!).

I felt like a midget standing next to him, even though I’m 5’9. It was cute though, haha.

We sat outside most of the night, making conversation etc.. However, he kept looking at me throughout as if he wanted to do something… I’m like okay, I just need to drink my tea first x☺😚.

He started becoming touchy-feely with me; I didn’t know how to react to it at first, because I’ve never really had a guy that was interested in me like that. However, I started to become more comfortable with it as the night went on.

He then pulled a smooth move on me. He said, put your hand on mine; and I’m like, yeah mines slightly smaller; he then intertwined them, and I was thinking, he’s good πŸ˜‚.

A charmer of note, really. Then came the most important part of the night, he asked me, had I had my first kiss yet? And I said, no. So I feel that I knew what was about to happen.

I said, I need to close my eyes for this. It would be weird for me kissing someone with their eyes open; creepy af πŸ™„.

He then went in for it from the side, my legs were shaking. What the actual eff is going on? Is this actually happening? To me? πŸ˜‚πŸ˜.

It lasted a few seconds, and even more so as the night wore on.

Haven’t heard from him since, but hey, it was an experience 😊😁.

Why saying no is a good thing…

Yes I’ll do this for you, yes I’ll do that for you. Sound familiar?

Everyday, whether it’s with family, friends or work, we’re asked to do favours for them. Sometimes we don’t mind, but sometimes it’s gets too much to handle and you feel as though your head is going to explode.

You say yes because you don’t want to to disappoint or let them down, even when you have your own prorities to worry about; but in my opinion, the more they ask, the more they take advantage of you and you become okay with it. DON’T!

You have to draw the line and set boundaries. Be rational yet firm about it. Don’t be a walk over. You have your life to worry about as well.

If you’re like me, it’s sometimes hard to say no, because you have to please them. Say no when you feel that they have overstepped that boundary. It’s something I’m still learning to do.

“I don’t mind helping you with this, but I also need to focus on my priorities right now.”

“I won’t be able to help you today, because I have something important that I need to do, to.”

You matter, too. Don’t forget that!

It’s been a while…

It’s been quite a while since I last posted. Life has been pretty hectic and draining these past couple weeks. Work has kept me so busy, it’s just been go go go. And personally, it’s been tough in many other ways, but thankfully we’ll pull through it.

Have a wonderful week!

Xxx

Mother’s Day

So thankful for my mom, not only on mother’s day; but everyday. She is truly the epitome of strength and courage, regardless of the countless of challenges she’s had to go through. A true role model in every sense of the word.

Mom’s are truly special. And certainly, wonderwomen πŸ’ͺπŸ’œ

My Long Weekend

I really have had a relaxing long weekend. I gymed, lazed about and just did my own thing. And not to forget, that I slept in. Why do I have to leave my bed? πŸ˜„. But thankfully it’s Wednesday, so it’s almost technically the weekend again! 😎.

Hope you all have had a good week so far!

Xx

Breathing a sigh of relief

For 3 years I had a really great friend, with whom we’d been through alot together, both good and bad. We had our fair share of ups and downs; but they proved to me what a true friend was. Even at my worst and vice versa, we thought of each other, we still saw the good in one another.

However we lost contact about 2 years ago; very personal things happened at that. Too much detail to get into. And highly emotional.

I now have just messaged that person, after a year and abit; debating whether to or not, but I did.

To truly heal and move on; I said what I needed to. Whether they reply or not; they now know how I’ve truly felt all the time since then.

I reflect back on that friendship; through it all. And I thank them for it.

However, it’s time to truly move on, wish them nothing but the best, and continue learning from each and every experience going forward.

And now I can finally say, I am breathing a sigh of relief…

Never Giving Up! πŸ™†β€β™€οΈπŸ’ͺ

At 26, I feel that I haven’t stopped learning. I’m continuously doing so, and figuring it out along the way.

Because everything I’ve ever accomplished, I made it happen for myself. Worked hard, learned valuable lessons, never gave up and persisted; even through tough times.

I’ve learned along the way, that sitting back and waiting for opportunities to come to you is not going to cut it. You got to go out there and make it happen.

For me, personally;

I’ve worked with children, in various roles, for over 6 years. It’s something I’ve always been passionate about, but I had no idea what I was doing when I first started. Over the years, I learned from each experience, improving and bettering myself . I didn’t give up; though there were times I felt that I wanted to.

Those were the times where I learned lessons the hard way. I’m glad I did.

When it came time for getting my drivers license; let’s just say, it was quite the journey to get there. But I did it, I persisted. I had to believe that I would get it. Thinking positively, even with the doubts I had.

I also didn’t follow the usual route when everybody leaves school. Mine was like lines going every which way. Studying towards a diploma for a year, getting my first part time job, redoing a particular subject from school to gain higher marks ( I was doing this while working! 😎). Doing courses in between, working as an aupair, classroom facilitator and aftercare assistant…. showed me the amazing opportunities that came to me, when I didn’t give up on myself. And that it was okay that my path wasn’t like everyone else’s.

I also began to learn that when you put yourself out there, you’ll begin to see what can come your way. Rejection, however, is a part of this process, and yes it can suck big time, as not all opportunities are meant for you, but you can’t let that deter you.

Keep trying, keep persisting, and most importantly, never give up!

You got this! πŸ’ͺπŸ˜ŽπŸ™†β€β™€οΈπŸ’š

#nevergiveup #yougotthis